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Just got the call from the clinic with the results of my second blood test. My beta hCG level is down to 38 (from 41) and the progesterone only increased slightly.

The nurse said that I can expect to start miscarrying in the next week.

That's two pregnancies lost in one year, 3 in less than 2 years. Starchild, Bean and now my little stars.

I don't know how we are going to bear this because this is so hard. It's too hard.