I sometimes (*cough*) think about What Might Have Been. I wonder what our life would be like if I hadn't lost Starchild and he (we didn't know if Starchild was a boy but I was convinced) was going to celebrate his 2nd birthday next month.
Or what our life would be like if we hadn't lost Bean and we had a 15-month old daughter lighting up our days.
Or what if we hadn't lost both our Little Stars in December and we would be currently sleep-deprived and ankle deep in the nappies.
I've fallen a bit in love with the many worlds theory lately because it says that somewhere there are universes where all of those things are real.
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That's lovely, the thought that somewhere, somehow, they all made it. Somewhere, somehow, we're having playdates so our toddlers can learn how to play nicely together.
ReplyDeleteI really love this post.
I do this, probably too much but sometimes it's all I've got.
ReplyDeleteYou're definitely not alone in this.
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I know this feeling all too well. I cannot imagine what you are feeling knowing that you have stopped trying for a baby, I imagine that would make this that much harder. I wish there was a different way for you.
ReplyDeleteP.S. It is kind of odd to leave this on such an emotional post, but I wanted to answer you question about curly hair products. I am using Miss Jessie's Curly Pudding. It is kind of expensive but works really well. I also use a cheap Garnier spray curl gel.
I get this - I imagine my little one being born now. Or the pregnancy of my other little one. I hope my kids can play with your kids in the other world...
ReplyDeleteI hope you are right about the many worlds. I daydream about a few myself.
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