I lost the last pregnancy over Christmas, we went away for New Year and during that time we were either drinking, eating or laughing with friends. Since we came back to the metropolis, we have been pretty much gunky-b00bie-focussed.
But now that fun is over and we are faced with the big, black abyss which is What Next? We haven't had our WTF appointment with the consultant yet, we haven't really discussed whether we are going to have another shot at IVF (a brief, 30-second moment yesterday when Significant Other said that the first go took too much out of him I don't think really counts as "talking about it") and I can't even begin to think about what's next if we don't have another go.
Bizarrely, the time spent either being sliced and diced or in a c0deine-induced marshmallowy other world has been a relief. But today is exactly one month since I started to properly bleed (floods rather than spots) and exactly 6 months until I am 42 and no longer eligible for IVF in this country.
It's time to take our fingers off the pause button.
Other's or Aunties' Day
8 hours ago
Wow - I didn't know they had a cut off age in Britain. That sucks. I really hope your WTF appointment gives you some answers and some direction. If you only have six months of Ivf coverage and you think you can handle it of course I would say go for it, but it's easy for me to say and I don't know your whole story. Thinking of you and hoping you get to have the conversation with hubby and you're both in agreement:)
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like you need to have a good talk about the future. Really hoping you come to a decision that you are both comfortable with.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you
ReplyDeleteOh Illnare this time is the most confusing. What should we do next? Been there, done that. Whatever you decide will be the right thing, but I know its the deciding that is the hard part. I am thinking of you and wishing whatever is best will come your way, and soon. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best with the big decisions you have to make in the near future.
ReplyDelete((HUGS))