So there I was yesterday, immersed fathoms deep in a journal article I am writing with Dr Beardie, when this thought floated, unprompted and so unchecked, across my conciousness:
"I am never going to have a child"
I lost my breath for a moment.
Infertility: the gift that keeps on giving.
"A Place of Greater Safety" by Hilary Mantel
18 hours ago
Oh lovely.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry. It's not fair. xxxx
I hate those moments.
ReplyDeletei know this, i know this thought, we are dear friends unfortunately. it just pops up at random times and sucker punches you in the chest, taking your breath away.
ReplyDeleteyou're right honey, the gift that keeps on giving.
sending you big hugs and bucket loads o love.
~x~
much love to you my sweet, brave friend- I owe you an email. I have been MIA. I promise I will get back to you this week
ReplyDeletexoxo
Crap, isn't it. xx
ReplyDeleteYep. :p I'm sorry. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteOh sweetie, I wish there were words to bring you comfort. I did just watch this video:
ReplyDeletehttp://highheelsandhuggies.blogspot.com/2012/03/shes-definitely-stronger-than-i-could.html
Hugs, Jem.
Yes, those "ouch" moments hit us just when we least expect it. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteIt seems very unfair that it should just jump up and smack you while you were busily getting on with things. I mean, all well meaning people say 'concentrate on something else! Get on with your life!' and you DO, and you still can't escape the Grief Monster. Not fair at all. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteHATE those moments. So sorry it had to sneak up on you like that. Just know that there's the LOT of us that go through this too. HUGS ....
ReplyDeleteYes. Breaths are taken away from me like this too. I have to assume it'll happen for as long as I have breath in my body.
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